Dear Always,
I don’t want to date if I’m being honest. Not like that I don’t want to but there hasn’t been anyone I feel like I can connect with like that? That it won’t be weird. I don’t know? I only want you? But how am I meant to find you if I don’t try? Right?
Today I was supposed to go on this date, but I canceled and even if I hadn’t had canceled pretty sure it would count as being stood up because there was no response or anything. Maybe it’s just a miscommunication? But honestly? I prayed that I’d get a straight up sign. I know it probably sounds terrible. I’m just trying to figure this all out and I know we all are. I do my best to be understanding and kind but I’m sick of feeling like just some game? You and a lot of people probably get that. Maybe you’re the game player? I tried that side for a while. Wasn’t very good at it, I’m also a terrible liar.
Anyways, I have a lot going on in my life currently but it also feels like nothing at all. I wonder if that’s how you feel? I’m also a year clean in a week. Shocking. To me anyways. I’m also watching Bob’s Burgers from the start again for the I want to say fifth time? Pretty insane I know.
Until next time XOXO Forever.
Stormy Ville 
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