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June 26, 2024

Dear always,

OMG! I think I’m finally in my villain era? Like full swing villain arc. But that’s not what this letter is about. Friday I’m getting port #2 placed, you know since the first one got infected and nearly ended my existence 😂 I laugh but it’s actually traumatized me and my whole family.

I honestly have so many mixed feelings but hey? I’m going to be able to get my van and live on the run like a savage? Nah I’m kidding about the savage part. But I do want to travel, I always have but now I can kind of see it now? Kind of. It’s still hazy and there’s still so much to get through.

Fun fact though I completely forgot how to have a “crush” and this last week I was having a fucking mental breakdown because I didn’t understand what was happening? Then I figured it out. Truthfully I really do forget about some of the shit I didn’t experience until I start to go through it all over again you know? Well I doubt you do… But maybe you do.

I just hope we make it you know? To the beginning and to the forever? But I know it’s a lot to take on… I just smile a bit in the moments when I can feel you? You’re always going to be my favorite 11:11 wish. Happy 626 day! I hope you’re doing okay, but if you aren’t? Remember it’s okay to not be okay and I know that’s so damn cliche but it’s so true. It’s the most realistic and accurate thing. It’s okay to be pissed off for five seconds, know you’re valid in that and it doesn’t make you a villain, it makes you human. If it did make you a villain well… I always did have a thing for the bad guys 😉

XOXO Forever