01.10.2026

Question of the day: What do you need today?

Well since I’m writing this so late I can answer this with confidence what I needed today was a good drive, loud music and to sit quietly at my favorite spot with the water touching me. And to just escape. To breathe in the fresh air and sit with my demons for a while and be reminded of all the times I wanted to be where I am today. How grateful I am for every random act of kindness from a stranger. Every off handed conversation that reminds me of someone I once knew. I needed to be reminded of the peace I can always find and the grounding. For I while I’ve needed it but to be honest today I really needed it. I woke up feeling the chaos brewing and I just knew I needed something so I did this thing I do, where I accidentally on purposely take the super long way home which takes me closer to my favorite spot which feels like my church. Aka nature. I mean that was where Jesus spoke to God right? In the mountains and by the sea? Maybe I’m misremembering. But lately that’s where I feel closest to him.

Anyway I took that route. For a lot of reasons. But it was worth it for sure. To every random person I had an interaction with today, I doubt you’ll ever stumble across this but if you do just know those conversations were small but important. The kindness of the cashier who was patient with me while I tried to figure my card out, you will literally never not be on my mind when I go to a store because seriously it means so much. And the random group of people that I talked to about the springs? I literally don’t know if you’ll think about that weird girl at the lake but I’ll always think about how weird you must have perceived me lol. And to the gentleman with the electric surfboard thingy, I seriously didn’t know that existed until today so that’s cool? Also your puppy was adorable. And to the sweet woman who was eating grapefruit as I was leaving and we talked about it being our shared favorite picnic spot, thank you for sharing other places that I should check out. And the last cashier of the night too. All of these interactions they really do hold weight in my life.

Then to top the day off I spent some time with an important person in my life, also got to see three of the most important people in my life. Give them their Christmas gifts. Which that was something I hadn’t realized I needed as much as I did. I guess it was one of those things where like I knew I needed it but it didn’t feel in the moment as big of a deal as it did when I actually did it if that makes sense?

So all in all I guess the over all point is I needed a day to myself that wasn’t fully to myself. I needed to be alone with myself but around people and I needed to recenter and ground myself. And as woman who’s always lived and breathed country air and loved lakes or any water to be honest. Nature in general, the thing I needed today was loud music, the possibility of human interaction, to touch grass and water, and a long drive.