Biggest “What if?” (2026 Edit)

Hello and welcome back to Stormy Ville or welcome if you’re new! Today is a rather exciting day because we’re bringing back some of the old school posts. But with a twist. I’m going to give you the original then I’m going to add an updated perspective at the end? Sounds good? Hopefully it does? If you want more of this style of content just kindly like it or comment below and let me know. I have ages of old stuff that I would love to look through again with the perspective I have now. Okay, let’s get into one of my most treasured ones from back in the day which for some reason is still relevant now:

Biggest “What if?” (Posted August 20, 2020)

Ever loved someone so much but like you KNEW it would never work out. Like you knew the two of you only had one way to go together and that was to hell. You could love and love but all that would happen would be dragging each other to hell.

It’s something you never want to feel, but it still happens. You can’t prevent it, can you? If you can I haven’t found a way…

Okay got a bit off track for a second, so back to the point I think. Every single thing about this person is so amazing it’s like heaven but they’re also your own personal hell on earth. So gorgeous. The grey eyes, light brown almost dirty blonde hair, a smile that would knock any girl to their knees, and oh my gosh the voice that’s almost like a bonfire on a cold winter’s night. The devil is the most gorgeous thing you’ve ever seen. Thus why we fall for the traps. Now I’m not saying that this person is evil by any means. Just making a point that sometimes the “perfect” person isn’t the right one. But what if they are? What if you’re judging them based on past experience? What if YOUR biggest mess up is walking away?

How much do you really know? How much do we actually talk? How much do I actually trust this person? I don’t know enough. We don’t talk unless he wants something from me or is that what I’m tricking myself into believing? I don’t trust him because I’m terrified of him. Then again I don’t trust anyone really.

Now I’m a generally timid person especially when it comes to people I truly care about. But him. It’s different and difficult. I know he has so much control over me. So much power but I don’t know why. He knows he has this power and control as well. If he wanted he could easily take advantage of it. And I wouldn’t and likely couldn’t stop him. That’s lethal. But would he? Am I willing to take a chance like that?

I don’t want to just focus on the negative “what if’s” but also look at the balance of the positives. But can we really take that chance of defying our natural instincts…

Back to the present day : )

So, obviously there’s a lot to unpack there. It’s actually really fun revisiting this because I had tried to write a second part to this after me and the fella that this was about reconnected a few years later. Kid you not the shit was like it was ripped from a hallmark story line. I think I did a podcast episode about it then deleted that whole podcast… Casanova. Everyone in my life gets a cute little nickname. But anyway. Yeah, as much as I see how in the moment of writing this everything I said I felt was true to me. Looking back? Hindsight is 20/20 right? We were just kids.

I know the girl I was and where I was in that time of my life. I was looking for something – anything. And maybe he was too, but I wasn’t going to get anywhere if I just wanted everyone to be her, and I was grasping at straws. Drowning in denial. Suffocating under the weight of things I still won’t admit. But hey, aren’t we all? Anyway.

I also see how it still holds true. The way I questioned everything. I still do. Except I took the risk. Instead of letting the doubt lead the way, I let my heart lead. And I still have all those questions. I also have to factor in my age when I wrote this, but I feel like I was a little harsh. Then again I was just pouring my thoughts onto a page. Which is a lot of what I’ve always done.

What if’s are definitely something that you have to be wary of. It’s a road that can lead to amazing things but if you stray too far off the path, you might land in a pit of despair. Learning that is a process. Even at 22, I’m still learning to tread lightly with the big question of “What If?” because it’s more than just a two word question. It’s goblins and ghouls and sunshine and rainbows. It’s anything you want it to be but only if you believe it. I hope that makes sense?

I loved looking back at this post and seeing how closely it tied to a post I wrote recently for someone. In a way they mirror each other but in a more fun mirror kind of way? I’ll share a comparison one of these days. But anyway. I hope you all enjoyed a blast from the past and a true dig into the Archives.

P.S. This was a more planned dig into the archives whereas “A First” was kind of spur of the moment which is why this one is more planned out. I still hope you all enjoyed it, even if this was meant to be the actual start of our Archive series.