One Story Billions of Possibilities (Chapters Mashup (2026 Edit))

Hello and welcome back to another file from the archives. Or rather a trio of files. A fun fact is that my birthday is coming up! I’m an Aries. I also had a bit of a miniseries on this blog where I posted “Chapters”. Basically, they were just journal entries for my birthday. I’d write here what I typically wrote in my journal, much like I do any other time. Today, I’m posting them as a trio, to review and close out seeing as we’re coming closer to turning the page. I must say that though there are plenty of gaps in this series, seventeen and eighteen are the first two and then twenty is the latest. And of course, twenty-two is darkening as dawn breaks on twenty-three… so many things to say, but I won’t delay the start of the read much longer as I know this post is going to be a bit long winded. All of that being said, I think the first title I ever had for the post back in 2020 was the most accurate. I know I always take the scenic route. But One-Story Billions of Possibilities truly is the most fitting, which was why I chose to keep the name.

One Story Billions of possibilities – 2020

April 7, 2003 countless stories began but this is about one story in particular that started that day.

The story of a girl who had faith enough to stop hurricanes and the stubbornness of a mule. The story of a girl growing not only growing up with age but maturing with wisdom. The story of a hopeless romantic who loved and loved with all she had. The story of falling from the high horse, having your heart ripped out and breaking someone else’s. The story not of all sunshine and rainbows for to get the rainbows you must first have rain. It’s the story of a never ending war with occasional peace if you know where to look; Life is a hailstorm go with it. I have been trying my darndest to go by that saying for over a year now, and actually kinda sorta starting to succeed with it. Every birthday is a milestone. Our lives are books. Every year of our lives is a different chapter, every month is like a subchapter and every week like a paragraph and every day is like a sentence all in our book of life.

I’ve been through many different subchapters since beginning chapter 16 of my life. They feel more like different years so much has happened. So um I’m going to tell you 17 things I’ve learned about myself in my latest chapter of life and 17 goals for this chapter of my life. So here goes.

17 things I’ve learned about myself and in general during my 16th chapter

Be careful who you give your heart to
Put your health whether mental or physical or both first
It doesn’t matter what others think of you and your decisions in the end you are the one that has to live with yourself
I love rum (Great if you plan on dating a pirate;)
I really am A LOT stronger mentally and emotionally than I originally thought.
The pain from a tattoo needle is similar to the pain from a needle when getting blood drawn (at least to me) and I enjoy it
I’m obsessed with the moon
My moon sign is Gemini
I have a type and well just big oof on my part
Just because you think you know someone, well it doesn’t mean you do
I am actually pretty good at identifying vehicles (mostly trucks)
I’m homesick for a state I haven’t been in in 7 years
My fascination with cryptids and the paranormal has grown billions and continues to grow
The passion I had for animals as a child has led me to being an extremely proud mother of multiple special needs animals
My worth is not defined by anyone or anything
People come and go, but the ones that can walk through hell with you and dance in the flames well they are the real ones
I am a Queen, do I want a king? Yes. Do I need one? No, no I don’t. I am tired of wasting time and energy on guys that aren’t right for me. Call me crazy, lock me down, say what you want… But I KNOW there is someone who I am meant to be with, and when the stars align, fate matches up and destiny crosses our paths it won’t be a fairy tale but it will all be worth it.

17 Goals for this chapter

To have my GED either completed or half completed
To continue the process of eliminating toxicity from my life
I want to get a job
I want to travel more
I’m going to get to know myself better. Instead of dating others, I’m going to try a bit of self-dating, pouring my heart and soul into myself instead of someone else, that’s not to say I won’t help it’s just saying I need to help myself for a while.
I’m going to find new hobbies; I actually have a few in mind
To find who I am, I know who I was and I know who I want to be but who I am is still a question
To keep up with my physical therapy and infusions better, I want to be more organized in life
Learn to drive a standard
Being more open about my thoughts
Being more assertive
Forgiving things and people
Learning to love people as they are
Being confident as myself
Learn a language
Branch out a bit more in my exploration of life
Discover more things I love

It’s a new chapter.

Until next time Loves

Cheers to 18! – 2021

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Originally, I thought I was way off with my goals for Chapter 17 while I was thinking of what to write for chapter 18’s post…

Turns out I’m not

Lemme explain. The post https://thechronicalesofhails.com/blog/f/one-story-billions-of-possibilities had 17 things learned and 17 goals most of my goals were emotional. Here let’s do a quick recap of the goals.

17 Goals for this chapter

To have my GED either completed or half completed
To continue the process of eliminating toxicity from my life
I want to get a job
I want to travel more
I’m going to get to know myself better. Instead of dating others, I’m going to try a bit of self-dating, pouring my heart and soul into myself instead of someone else, that’s not to say I won’t help it’s just saying I need to help myself for a while.
I’m going to find new hobbies; I actually have a few in mind
To find who I am, I know who I was and I know who I want to be but who I am is still a question
To keep up with my physical therapy and infusions better, I want to be more organized in life
Learn to drive a standard
Being more open about my thoughts
Being more assertive
Forgiving things and people
Learning to love people as they are
Being confident as myself
Learn a language
Branch out a bit more in my exploration of life
Discover more things I love

Ninety percent of these things I have held true to continually working day by day. My GED will be taken care of soon, by the time you all see this I will likely have already applied for my job, driving a standard is still something I very much want to do but now my truck needs my focus so I can get my license. Toxicity is something that has to be weeded out like your garden, but you also have to realize how toxic you can be as well. A hard lesson to learn but a lesson, nonetheless. As for physical therapy and infusions well I lost my port so no more infusions but still have to keep up with PT.

I have learned so much about myself during chapter 17. For instance, I’ve mentioned that growing up I was heavily involved in church plus I personally had a strong relationship with God. Then around the time I got sick my relationship started to waver and struggle. Recently I realized that was because it was something that came natural to me in the beginning of my life, then it did not. Which is exactly why it has been so difficult for me to find my footing again.

Who I am is no longer a question. I am Hailey sometimes Hails, beautiful but not vain. Confident but not cocky. Chronically Ill but still human. Hurting but healing. No matter what I am on the right track to being the woman I want to be even on the days I want to just give up. Most of all I am proud because my body has not given up on me yet and I have not given up on it yet either and that is only by the grace of God. Still though it makes me proud to know I have made it to chapter eighteen.

I have made a lot of changes in my life during chapter 17. Some were harder and took longer and didn’t just affect me, but they were my choice to make and you live and you learn. So here I am about to start chapter eighteen, and I am a mess but I am actually for the first time in a long time somewhat at peace, because I have finally begun to let go I guess? I wish I could express fully what this feeling is, but it is like everything might be falling apart but I’m like chill with it? I have no idea what that is but that is what I feel. Of course, I still have days when I’m not okay that’s life with chronic illness, mental illness and of course just plain life but for the most part.

If you made it this far congratulations because you are amazing and loyal and bless your heart. As for chapter 18, I’m not sure what is in store besides good lord’s will getting a job and my license and being better organized at blogging. It all finally seems to make a bit of sense and going back to the basics really helped me, I stripped a lot of who I was pretending to be away and in that I had to say goodbye to quite a few people but it was for the better, as I wish them all the best. I just needed to strip it down and find myself again and the little girl who saw no wrong in the world well she grew up and parts of her burned but a phoenix rises from the ashes right? I am who I am today because of my past and my illness. You know the saying Rome wasn’t built in a day? Neither are strong durable people. It takes your past, your illness, your friends, and family; it takes all of that to build your character for your story. Don’t hate it, embrace it.

Cheers to 18!!!

Chapter 20 – 2023

Hello, my darlings and welcome back to Stormy Ville!

As you can probably tell by the title, we are about to enter a brand-new chapter of my life haha, Okay this is terrifying. I’ve had so many changes going on in my life at the moment and before this moment, but this post is going to be very similar to my seventeenth and eighteenth birthday post, AYE shout out to my bestie it’s been two years on the 11^th since we met! Happy Friendiversary if you read this but also you know I’m going to blow up your phone! Any who let’s get into this, first we’re going to start with twenty things I don’t want to carry with me into my next chapter/decade/sub-genre of my life.

Guilt
Body shame
Self-hatred
Pain
Her
Him
Shame
Self-pity
Judgement
Cruel words
The fear of loving
Lies
Fear
Toxic Positivity
Denial
Self-Sabotage
The fear that I’m not enough.
Being too prideful to take the first steps to mend a fence.
The feeling of being a burden because of my illnesses.
The idea that everyone has to like me, or I’ll die.

Now a letter to myself before the goals and plans.

May this darling angel find her way back home. May she rest for her battle was great and her faith stayed strong. But one last thing I have to say to her… My love, you still live within me. This isn’t goodbye, this is just see you later. See you when you reform. When you finish your complete evolution or when this version of me is no longer and I join you there in the bed of roses.

Is it peaceful there? I’m grateful to you. I wish you the best, my love. I pray you’re at peace. I’m learning to be who you need the most. I’m learning that forgiveness isn’t just words. Letting go isn’t as easy as everyone acts, and that just because my path is different and “wrong” to them? It doesn’t mean it is. And most importantly… I’m learning to forgive you. For what you didn’t and couldn’t know. With that comes forgiving my current self for not knowing. For not reacting the way we would now. Can you forgive me… for not loving you until it was too late?

We built these walls up together and at some point, we built one between ourselves. Baby girl, I hear your screams as much as you hear mine. We’ve been taking the wall down piece by piece and trying so hard to heal each other but the closer we get the harder it becomes. I want that part of me back, I want you back. I know we can never be the same, but we can flourish together into a perfectly imperfect jewel that is one of a kind… irreplaceable.

Something I’ve learned during our time apart is that we can’t turn the clock back. It’s something so basic but such a difficult lesson. We can’t go back to the days when it was just us kids with gram and grandpa. We can’t erase the things we’ve done. The things we’ve said. The things we went through… they won’t go away. They made us who we are. Honestly, I’m not sure what one was the catalyst for separating us, maybe if I knew it’d do more damage. But I know the moment it all changed. The moment we started to heal. Maybe not the date because it was a blur, but I know the moment and the feelings, and I remember how much we needed each other because at that moment there was no one. Surrounded by people, we were completely isolated. It was life or death for us to pull together for five minutes to try and think.

We did it, our hands touched for the first time in years, and it created a domino effect. That’s when our worlds began to truly heal. We still stand on separate sides of this wall… kept from each other. But at least we have one block gone. Every lesson we learn is another brick down or another link in the chain weakened. Bringing us closer to reuniting and being one again. It won’t change just because we enter a new era. If anything, it’ll get more focus. You will get more focus. Because I love you. And I don’t say that enough.

Signed Hailstorm (You but older and with more knowledge of what you were going through)

Plans and Goals of Chapter 20/ New Era

Go camping!
Finish getting my car situated and get comfortable driving it.
Continue working with Rocky.
Spend plenty of time with my boyfriend (duh).
Set up and organize my room in a super aesthetically pleasing way.
Write (A LOT)
Focus on my mental and physical health.
Learn to balance my health and life better.
Spend more time with family and friends (Shout out to my Gal and her family!)
Get a better sleeping schedule.
Try one new thing every month. (Food, activity, etc..)
Finish watching the Star Wars movies.
Finish listening to the Harry Potter Audio books.
Read 11 books.
Go to West Virginia for Christmas.
Build a Blanket fort.
Go fishing.
Watch the sunset with someone important to me.
Get a Quarter of my book finished.
Never stop learning… especially about myself.

Well, my darlings if you’ve made it this far I hope you enjoyed this post. Happy Birthday if we’re birthday twins or if your birthday is coming up. May all your hopes and dreams come true!

Until next time,

Hailstorm Marie

Back to the present day.

Some of these goals still haven’t been met.

Some of these goals still haven’t been met. A lot of the goals I had, things I wanted to learn and feel. The emotional things. I’m still learning them. They’re things that are going to take a life time of work but I feel safe in saying I’m proud of how far I’ve come and while I might not have my GED or a brick and mortar job at the moment. I don’t drive a standard; I can actually it’s just difficult with my knee. But a lot of the goals I had, they were things I was desperately craving. I was seeking security and I found that within myself. I must admit that going into my new year… I feel lighter and I feel okay. It’s nice to see the pay out of all your hard work.

I never read those eleven books but I picked up a book again and that made me proud and to be fair I probably reread my book that I’m writing over a hundred times – I’m not even joking here. I think that counts for something. As for everything I wanted to let go of? I’ve done a damn good job of letting go. Even with having to work hard at it. So all in all I’d say walking into Chapter Twenty Three I’m proud of the woman I am and I think the past versions of me have been cheering her on. But I know this post was a long one so if you made it this far comment your zodiac sign and let me know if you’re a fellow aries! I hope to see you in the next one.