Dear Always, I hope your month is going better than mine. I would say lol but I don't actually think it's funny. I'm tired of faking everything... feeling like the only place that actually makes sense is a place that doesn't exist? You probably get that? Or not. I don't know... honestly, I'm just tired... Continue Reading →
Alpha
April 21, 2024 Dear Alpha, Yes, I introed differently today. I'm feeling a bit weird lately to be honest with you, love. I know it's been a while since writing you again. Also, my site looks a lot different/better and more simplistic? I love it. We've got a lot to catch up on though, but... Continue Reading →
Why I’ve been m.i.a (kinda)
Long time no post (again!) but I'm back with a letter to Always and I hope you all have a lovely holiday season! But in case you aren't (spoiler not everyone likes or has amazing holidays... it's okay to not be okay.)
Guilt, the demon I’ve yet to make peace with…
June 11, 2023 Dear Always, I’ve been feeling guilty lately. I always (no pun intended) wanted you to be my first everything. My first love, my first kiss, the first person – that. I wanted you to be my first, only and last. But life had other plans. My first love was more... Continue Reading →
Dear Always, XOXO Forever
June 2,2023 Dear Always, We’ll be making blanket forts on occasion. Today I made one and then fell asleep in it. Then decided to shove my bed in it! This honestly should have been filmed because WOW! I plan on watching true crime or Shrek in it. I did it mostly for me but... Continue Reading →
May 6th, 2023
Dear Always, What would you say to me if you knew exactly what I was thinking? I want the voices to stop. But now they're back… and it's my fault. I truly am the worst of the worst, aren't I? Between the chronic illnesses and my horrible life decisions? Or maybe the thing that makes... Continue Reading →
In Case We’ve Met
March 1, 2023 Dear Always, Oddly enough as much as I want to meet you I don’t at the same time. Why you ask? I’m not the person I want to be. I’m well on my way to becoming that person, but I’m still not that person. Quite yet. Soon enough. But if it so... Continue Reading →
My Thoughts Of August… A Letter
August 10, 2022. Dear Always, I finished enrollment today. It's a big step but that's not what's flooding my hearts eye. Surprisingly it isn't the latest season of Virgin River or Legacies either. Nor is it my book the one I'm reading and the one I'm writing. No what floods my heart is far more... Continue Reading →
July 16th, 2022
Dear Always, I don’t want to date if I’m being honest. Not like that I don’t want to but there hasn’t been anyone I feel like I can connect with like that? That it won’t be weird. I don’t know? I only want you? But how am I meant to find you if I... Continue Reading →
July Twelfth
July 12th, 2022 Dear Always, I feel like I talk to you more than I talk to myself when I’m talking to myself all the time. I talk so much about everything I imagine us to be, what I imagine myself to be, what I am, what I was, I give you certain qualities that... Continue Reading →
The First of Many
Long time no post am I right? Okay so I came up with a new series idea I think? Let me explain something real quick though. I date to marry. And I know exactly what I’m looking for. I might not know a lot about who I am at the moment but I know who... Continue Reading →
Stormy Ville 