July 9th, 2024 Dear Always, Last time I wrote you was before my surgery I believe? I don't remember but I have a thought I'd like to share and you're the perfect person to share that thought with seeing as I share nearly every other thought with you? Technically it's a few thoughts. But thought... Continue Reading →

June 26, 2024 Dear always, OMG! I think I'm finally in my villain era? Like full swing villain arc. But that's not what this letter is about. Friday I'm getting port #2 placed, you know since the first one got infected and nearly ended my existence 😂 I laugh but it's actually traumatized me and... Continue Reading →

Dear always, I'm sorry I haven't written in a while it's been hectic. Which you probably get that more than anyone right? Or maybe I've truly just begun to cling to delusions so I can keep so grounding to this planet. I can't keep being what everyone thinks I'm capable of being. Can't keep fighting.... Continue Reading →

May 24, 2024 Dear Always, I know I skipped last week. Two reasons for that but we aren't getting into those right now honestly I don't really have the mental energy for it or existing but I really wanted to write this letter before I forgot. So I likely won't post on Sunday… anyways is... Continue Reading →

Dear Always, I hope your month is going better than mine. I would say lol but I don't actually think it's funny. I'm tired of faking everything... feeling like the only place that actually makes sense is a place that doesn't exist? You probably get that? Or not. I don't know... honestly, I'm just tired... Continue Reading →

April 21, 2024 Dear Alpha, Yes, I introed differently today. I'm feeling a bit weird lately to be honest with you, love. I know it's been a while since writing you again. Also, my site looks a lot different/better and more simplistic? I love it. We've got a lot to catch up on though, but... Continue Reading →

Long time no post (again!) but I'm back with a letter to Always and I hope you all have a lovely holiday season! But in case you aren't (spoiler not everyone likes or has amazing holidays... it's okay to not be okay.)

June 11, 2023 Dear Always,                     I’ve been feeling guilty lately. I always (no pun intended) wanted you to be my first everything. My first love, my first kiss, the first person – that. I wanted you to be my first, only and last. But life had other plans.                     My first love was more... Continue Reading →